Here are four things I’ve learned since yesterday:
- Hydrocodone eliminates the pain of oral surgery.
- Hydrocodone eliminates the pain in my knee.
- Hydrocodone eliminates the nagging twinge I’ve had in my back for the last few weeks.
Hydrocodone scares me.It’s okay to be a good responder.
I took my pain medication last night and, as soon as it kicked in, I went immediately to pain-free sleep. And of course that’s the point. Of course I wanted to be pain free. Of course.
But I didn’t expect to be so pain free. I’ve taken pain meds before, but I don’t remember ever responding so completely to anything I’ve ever taken. I’ve certainly never taken anything that made the pain in my knee disappear.
I slept. This morning, the drug had worn off, and the pain woke me up. So I took another pill so I could do some work before getting ready for work. Except I couldn’t really get much done because the drug kicked in and then I felt weird, like I hadn’t gotten my sea legs yet or something.
I did get a little work done, but I kept having to stop and breathe and adjust to the not-quite-normal-ness of how I felt.
I took one more pill today. It wore off hours ago, but I’ve held off taking another. I wanted to feel more like myself, so I didn’t take anything. And that worked, but it was actually a stupid move. I feel like myself, yes, but I feel like myself in a fair amount of pain. So I’ll take one now, put myself to bed and see how I feel in the morning.
Why am I afraid of hydrocodone? Aside from the fact that it made me feel unsteady as I went through my day? It works too well. It’s easy to see why people want to take it beyond their actual need for pain-killing. And that’s not cool. The unsteadiness bothered me, but maybe only because I had to be up and about today. If I’d been home in bed, I probably wouldn’t have noticed it much and would have just felt pretty good all day.
Do I need to be afraid of hydrocodone? Not really. I’m not interested in developing a close, personal relationship with it. I want my face not to throb, and it gets the job done. This receptiveness is just something I hadn’t anticipated. My dentist called it yesterday, however, so maybe I should have guessed. When he gave me the Novocain before the surgery, I started to get numb really quickly. He was happy to hear that. “You’re a good responder,” he said. “That’ll make this easier for you.” Clearly I’m a good responder to the hydrocodone, too. Which, I guess, can make this easier for me.
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